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Angel
04:45
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I'm looking for an out, God give me strength to shout
I need to scare away, demons from yesterday
I see them everywhere, but no one seems to care
No one understands, I don't know who I am anymore
The night is dark and cold and I know I'm much too old
To be afraid like this, I need my mother's kiss
But she is far from me and I wonder can she see
The kind of mess I'm in, feel like a child again
Oh no
There's an angel I can feel it, will it save me from myself
can't seem to do it on my own anymore
Someone please hold my hand, pull me up so I can stand
No longer wanna crawl, can't this be my last fall
I wanna move ahead, will my hunger be fed
Need a better view, is this trial finally through
Say yes
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So Low
04:26
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Waking up again from the cold dull gray
I was just sleeping and life got in my way
Floating on my back waiting to die
Just a victim of the storm clouds in the sky
Was there a world outside this haze
Eyes half closed I wandered in a daze
Pushed around like driftwood in the sea
Finally landed on a shore that leads to me
No the highs are high and the lows are so low
Can see a glimps of why I gave up the will to row
I can't remember who I was
Just an empty shell without a cause
Looking inside was just too hard
Felt I always had to be on guard
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My Religion
04:26
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Wading through the stream with a cushion of moss for my toes
Reeling from the damp smell of earth till that's all I know
The afternoon light is whispering through the trees
Wildflowers on the side of the path up to my knees
Walking through the woods.....It's my religion
Playing in the surf.......It's my religion
Desert's starry sky......It's my religion
Sun upon my skin.......It's my religion
Sometimes it's just too much and I'm moved to tears
Sky's so big I feel like I could see for years
The sun goes down and the wind rises with my fears
Rustling in the night, I can hear the call of the wild
Storm passing through with the drama of an angry child
Cotton candy clouds watch the seagulls flying by
Sun sinking low, soon to be orange sherbet sky
The sound of the waves, they ease away my pain
Sand in my hair, I don't care, I don't wanna be tame
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Here I am
04:00
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Calm like an ocean dark like the day
A walking oxymoron but that's ok
I cry when I'm happy I laugh when I'm gray
Your lack of understanding is a sign of your decay
Really not that special just trying to be real
Older maybe wiser developing my skill
Don't have it figured out yet probably never will
Gonna die trying it's an urge that I can't kill
Here I am here I am
Sometimes feeling like the light of the world
Sometimes plagued with doubt and shame
Feels so good feels so good
Rip tide pulling me away from the shore
Trying to make a splash for my moment of fame
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Silver Lining
04:47
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Praying to a god I'm not sure I believe in For a silver lining behind this dark cloud You know I'm looking for diamonds I heard they're buried in this mud
There's gotta be something That makes it all worth it Turns suffering into beauty Turns misery into joy
Can we make this happen are we victims of fate Grasping for control in this dark and raging storm
The ship is thrashing I can hear it creaking and moaning Vicious circle spinning round Caught in an eddy that's too strong I can feel the pull of the dark side It's like a magnet I can't resist Will there be another sunrise I need it to find my way home
Can we make this happen are we victims of fate Grasping for control in this dark and raging storm
I can feel it coming round the corner I can feel it in my bones
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Disolving in my Hardware
03:59
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Is this hue a really from the sky blue Or is it just a dream from my flat screen Am I feeling real pain Or am I virtually insane Staying home in style Hiding in my profile
See my blank stare Dissolving in my Hardware
Do you really care will you really be there
Or is this facebook, artificial hook-up
I wanna stay connected But I feel infected
Stuck in quarantine
Never heard and barely seen
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Beautiful Misery
04:20
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It's a beautiful misery and I cherish it fiercely Gonna write it down in song And if you're feeling a bit like me Join in and sing along
I carry this in my soul, I need it to keep me whole And it's a gift I give to you Cause sometimes life takes its toll And it's a way to get you through
One step at a time One step at a time One step at a time
When the rain keeps on pouring down, feeding the desert ground Tomorrow you will see Spring blooming all around And you're where you want to be So cry if you're feeling sad if you don't it could drive you mad And you're tears won't be in vain Cause you won't always feel so bad, Life is both pleasure and pain
One step at a time One step at a time One step at a time
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I'm Your Ball and Chain
05:57
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I'm your anchor cuz I pull you down
You fly so high and I stand my ground
Sometimes I wonder when I pull on the reins
Does it benefit you or is it what keeps me sane
I'm your ball and chain I'm your ball and chain
And you seldom complain about your ball and chain
Just a touch of madness and a touch of brains
Has you believing you can stop this runaway train
You've gotta do it you've got to try
What's the point of living if your waiting to die
I'm your ball and chain I'm your ball and chain
And you seldom complain about your ball and chain
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Is it time to jump ship,
Stuck in a canoe, just me and you
Or will I be alone
On my own rowboat
Afraid we’re drifting away
it’s taken so long for an ocean so calm
But the whitecaps are here
We’ve forgotten to steer, and the salt tastes like fear
Sometimes it’s just to hard to know
Navigating’s gotten so slow
I’m finding it hard to let go
I’m finding it hard to let go
Lying awake
In the still of the night, god give me insight
I don’t feel to blame
Or any shame, just need to feel safe
We’ll make the shore
We’ll find relief, it’s my belief
We’ll catch a train
And be out of the rain, a new journey to claim
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Self Hate
04:50
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Never really learned to be it Always was a mystery Got real good at how to do And work my way to love from you Never really won the prize Falling short before your eyes I wonder just how it would feel To taste the fruit beneath the peel
Now the you has turned to me And I'm the one who can't be pleased Never feeling good enough At even just the basic stuff I know I should be in my prime But feeling worth less than a dime This habit is so hard to break I'm growing weary of self Hate
I'm growing weary of self hate It's time to turn another page
Past the point of who to blame It doesn't take away the pain Patterns etched across my mind Groves grow deeper with the time Tired of living just to cope Hanging on to ragged hope I'm sure there's others feel the same Childhood scars that still remain
I'm growing weary of self hate It's time to turn another page
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Splitting at the Seams
03:35
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I wanna live life at it's fullest From the jagged highs to the deep and darkest lows Too many years I was coasting on the smooth and rolling hills
Cushioning the fall cushioning it all
I didn't wanna be the person I was becoming
I didn't wanna watch my life go up in flames
You know I was driving from the back seat
The breaks too far away the car begins to stray
I'm a person of extremes splitting at the seams Numbing everything I was running I was running
Too many moments of lost memories The ones I have they feel me with shame Too many mirrors I can't see my face
Covered in the mist or shattered with my fist
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12. |
Ramshackle Life
03:50
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It's a ramshackle life since I've become a housewife I've given up my career as a frozen yogurt pusher extraordinaire No more styrofoam it's time for me to roam
We still manage to have fun even though my sugar daddy's under the gun
Do you believe in magic like dreams coming true well I'm living the dream it's just slightly skewed I've given up on perfection in every way The cuts and the scratches lend character they say
I'm a musician and I play with sound Trying to be an artist of the underground Buried so deep I can't see the light of day Wonder if there's anything worthwhile left to say
I paid my dues and I've earned this time Now I'm shouting in the wind and I'm lost in the rhyme My life is getting smaller as it fits on a dot I'm twisted and contorted in a tiny little knot
Sugar daddy pounds his bible it's science he interjects We evolved to survive and the rest is just side effects So I go on with this game of my ramshackle life Ride it like a wave the joy and the strife
Don't know how much time there is left anymore Live like it's my last moment that's what I'm here for Let go of caring if I matter at all Be who I am and get up when I fall
And we're sleeping in our car and we're sleeping in the sand And were doing it together and somehow it feels so grand
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My One Salvation
03:59
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Stuck in a day, one that’s never ending
Somehow you find a way to make it through tomorrow
If it weren’t for you, I don’t think I’d bother
But I will fight for you, don’t wanna cause you sorrow
Don’t wanna cause you sorrow…….
People come and go, things are always changing
When I get too attached I end up feeling broken
Do I expect too much, am I too needy?
But I believe in you, you’re my one salvation
My one salvation………..
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carolannette Pomona, California
I have been writing songs and performing in various bands over the last 40 years, including The Motherfolkers, Metal of the Road, The Grip and Technopagan. The styles included Blues based rock, folk rock, singer/songwriter and most recently an experiment in electronic dance music. Influences include Pink Floyd, Tori Amos, Bjork, The Eurythmics, James Vincent Mc Morrow and too many others to name! ... more
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